https://sword-of-moonlight.moe/blog personal website with patchouli mascot where I talk about my otaku hobbies. en-us 60 Tue, 01 Sep 2026 01:49:51 GMT https://sword-of-moonlight.moe/blog last night I went to grandmas house to celebrate my moms birthday although we never got to eat the cake because before that could happen, my drunk cousin started attacking someone with the intent of murder and it ended with me running out of the house from backyard and jumping into my moms moving car bc he was chasing after us... :/ wish i had a normal family. I wanted to wake early for my autism evaluation in morning, but sadly didn’t sleep good. (　；∀；) but coffee made me feel better in the morning at least. it went okay at the evaluation. I rage quitted at one of the block puzzles tho lol and failed so bad at the number tasks. (/ _ ; ) I thought I wouldn’t cry during my appointment, but i ended up doing so when asked about my family relationships and how i view myself... but other than that it was okay. this week i’m going back to france ! get to see my partner again. ♡ I’m planning on finishing my louise de la vallière cosplay when I’m there and he will take photos for me. :3 been continuing cold steel and at the moment in chapter 6. I want to finish before I leave, but will see. Fri, 14 Aug 2026 19:46:32 GMT https://sword-of-moonlight.moe/blog yesterday I found a clear file of tio that I've been searching for. ^^ to be honest, I never thought I'd actually find it, because it is a rare doujin item from a decade ago. happy to obtain !!(￣^￣ )ゞ also in this same day, I saw the reset kalar figure for a very cheap price, so I bought. I wanted to wait until I get to her game, since I'm still in IV at the moment, but it was too good of a price to past... I might not find this deal later. D: she is so cute tho, I'm sure I'll love her in-game. ^-^ rance IV so far is fun. :3 not as good as the previous 2 imo, but I think my enjoyment is equal to 01 at least.. The setting and cast is really nice. ^-^ although the english tl is very stiff sounding (not surprising) and the gameplay is a litttleee boring. but it is okay ! :3 I mean, more fun than what I expected from a 1993 jrpg lolol. tomorrow is my birthday... 25.. I'm an old lady oh no.. I will have yummy food, tiramisu, and soju at least. - w - ' Sun, 26 Jul 2026 21:41:08 GMT https://sword-of-moonlight.moe/blog something i always struggled with was speaking.. ive met lots of shy/quiet ppl, but none of them besides my partner are on the same level.. (one of the many reasons why i love my partner.. understands my struggles..) i feel like i can only speak maybe 2-3 sentences. i can’t speak long because if i do, i end up stuttering and forgetting words, so i just give up. whenever i need to say something long or a bit complex, i usually text it or write it down for them to read. times when i speak more than im used to, like if im playing a game with my partner and need to speak, usually it feels kinda harsh on my throat. and i quickly get a sore throat because im not used to speaking so much. when i was younger, my dream was actually to be a minecraft lets player. but it was always just a dream due to this inability to speak.. when i was 11 i did post some videos, but they weren’t so good... lots of silence and small words. not really entertaining xD “oh look a cow.. silence”. (　；∀；) the reason why im so quiet is because of a speech disorder. technically can be fixed, but i became burnt out as a child and couldn’t fix it fully… and as an adult i just avoid talking. its just uncomfortable putting so much energy into speaking a different way .. ( ；꒳； ) another reason is i’m just naturally quiet and boring.. i don’t really understand jokes, and i never know what to say. T_T insecure about this so i never vc people…. and especially don’t do group chats in general.. anyway !! lately i've been switching between cold steel 1, rance 03, and muv-luv altered fable.. they are nice. all comforting to me. :3 (yes rance too....) after I finish one of these, I think I'm going to continue .hack//g.u. because I've been slacking on that. :c trails I do need a break on ;w; playing non-stop past 4 months lol. .. maybe. Wed, 08 Jul 2026 22:45:04 GMT https://sword-of-moonlight.moe/blog lately, I have been very depressed... although that is not new. depression has been with me since I was young. I guess more depressed. (´△｀) I never know what to eat or have motivation to cook something, so I just end up not eating... I feel like my health isn't that well because of that. ;-; I already have anemia so I'm so dead everyday. T. T feel like I've also lost my ability to speak/text to others who are not my bf or make friends... I don't really talk to anyone much anymore.. dunno. today I ate lots of cookies though !! and that is all.... and I played cold steel on my ps4. it is fun. n_n athough I'm a little sad because I miss my bf.... will see him again in september.